Opening doors…
Just as I am… (originally posted March 2008)
well, it’s been awhile since i’ve done an entry and with the events of this morning, i just had to get this out…i feel absolutely broken.
i know God knows the path before me, and that’s my only consolation in knowing that He’s got it all in control, that it’ll be okay..even though i’m trying really hard to be positive and remember that all things work together for them that love God..i know it, i know it..
i know this all sounds vague..but this part of the blog is just for me to be able to get it off my chest, and see it in black and white in front of my eyes…
i would give whatever i had to any of my friends, without question..and i just don’t have much in my life anymore to give…
i don’t have money to fall back on; i don’t have a place to call my own; all i have right now are the friends that God has blessed me with(and i’m so thankful more than any of you could ever know), and a place to be for right now…
but, beyond that..i have my ears to listen to my friends’ problems, i have my heart to share with whoever asks, and i have my prayers that i can offer up for another’s needs…
that’s it there isn’t anymore..and now, i’m broken. and, i’m broke. and i’m trying so hard not to feel crushed, and discouraged…but, my only hope right now is in the Lord.
these are the words to a song i recently discovered that are my heart’s cries today…if i knew the artist, i’d at least give them credit..all i know is that it’s how i feel right now…
Just As I Am
Dear Lord,
i’m on my knees again
i’ve come to You cause You understand
i’ve tried so hard but i just can’t change myself
that’s why i know i need Your help
So here i am, this is my plea
my only hope is Your love for me
i’m reaching out so desperately
come take my hand, take all of me
just as i am, o Lord
You make what’s broken new
why can’t i just learn to follow You
i want to know You
to feel You in my soul
i surrender all control
so here i am, this is my plea
i’m reaching out so desperately
come take my hand, take all of me
just as i am not afraid
to follow You where You lead me
i can leave the past behind me
i’m forgiven and i’m free
so here i am, this is my plea
i’m reaching out so desperately
come take my hand, take all of me
just as i am
